Y u so cruel???

I didnt understand what u thinking about.... sometime I felt happy and glad can b wit u... but sometime I felt like lost... y u treat me so differently according to ur mood... I guess u nvr read my blog frequently oso... U dun hav tat feeling to wan know how am I now... I didnt request u for anything... I jus wan to be simple girl... love by u... but u cant give me the simple feeling that u r loving me...

Every day when I turn on my pc, first thing I wil do is to check my email inbox... everytime u did disappointed me... I didnt c ur email... u wil reply when I email u ... sometime u wont reply oso... I feel disappointed on u...

I missed the chance....

Haiz I jus missed the chance to work in 14days n can get RM1440... fuhh... jus now I get the call from my recruitment team leader... he asked the availability for next two weeks to be giving out sampling in Giant Klang... unfortunately... currently my milk powder project not ended yet... initially he said can find buffet to replace me for next week... but after that, the field executive who is tat bitch said cannot find buffet replace me all tat lame excuse la... den I missed the chance to grab the money edi...

But think positive mayb it is good for me oso... since last two weeks I been argue with one merchadiser who got power in Giant Klang... if I worked thr... sure she wil kena me... somemore I heard other promoter said the cage in thr is very high need to use ladder to climb up and keep ur booth all tat... so mayb not the good n easy job oso... haiz... :(

Need ppl attention...

Yea I needed ppl attention right now... I dunno what I trying to proof I m lost... sadly to say I didnt plan for my future like what other ppl did... I m blind in choosing the right road to walk in... I think this happened is most probably when u r gone from my life... when saw ppl couple in the shopping mall... I felt jealous on them... c them hand by hand all tat... looked at them so sweet can always together... the love passion wil b reducing when they get married n pregnant or having baby or kids edi... tis is what I can observe when I worked in baby department selling milk powder for kids... some of them might argue of the milk powder prices... diapers prices all tat... love is not two person matter onli... when it comes to marry stage... it become a responsiblity...

Jus now accidently I chat wit my cousin who I argue wit her before in msn... she didnt put her name jus left the message so I tot is other ppl... after chat for a while den I onli realise is her... initiallly she asked me wan work in pc fair o not in tis coming dec... I asked her about salary all tat n said now my salary for my part time job is higher than the salary she offered... den she like angry a bit... den I onli realise is her... haiz... den I turned back the sentences again... said I enjoy working in pc fair more than normal part time job... but the question is working wit her is not smthg fun... since she quite bossy all tat... on the other point... I prefer the working environment in pc fair... lots of promoter all tat... it is totally different standing in hypermarket n group with the aunties all tat...

After that, she asking for my bf... I told her he went uk all tat... den she said I so good got rich bf all tat... not onli her... the ppl around me like my relatives all tat... all oso said that... in the point of view of outsider... it may seem so nice having a bright future bf... but for me... it is not amthg very nice... since I hav to suffer the time being alone for around 9 months... after he graduate... he will b working in oversea... again either I followed him or waiting him again...

Waiting didnt mean put the full stop on this relationship... I believe my decision... believe if I pay more, the more return I wil get at the end of the day... honestly to say, everyone oso hope the return they wil get once they put in effort... I understand tat sometimes life didnt perfect as we thought... as what I said last time... let it happened naturally... whatever the result goes out... I jus need to accept it...

Genting Trip again...

This year is my fourth time went to Genting Highland and stay three time at thr edi... wat so interesting at thr... actually nothing jus feel bored den ma go thr lo.. since now the hotel rate is at affordable price n the go Genting package is cheap... so it another place for me to hang out when I m free... haha... this time I jus went wit one of my secondary fren... jus two of us onli lo... although the trip maybe a little bit bored but we did enjoy ourselves since lots of the time we can hav girl talk...

I book for the standard view room which the view was so terrible... jus can view old buidling n mountains onli... n my hp is no coverage at all... like stay in prison more than hotel...

The sunrise view from this terrible view room....

Compared with this standard view room... big different rite... this room is face the theme park... but quite noisy lo.. since can heard lots of ppl screaming sounds... haha...

This is one of the outdoor game which I nvr try b4 because it onli one person to sit on this thing n turn like "siao lan"... quite excited la this game but y jus one time one person n limit the weight of the person oso... minimum 35kg and maximum is 75kg....

Whr is this place.... ??? I guess ur guys sure know rite... the onli place for midnite entertainment...

Haha... this is my first time went to this place n having alcohol drink...

Emm.. initially tot can having fun at thr... but the DJ was so sux... play all the old n lame english songs onli... :(

Chew Hoiew n me... in the room... do nothing but capture lots of siao po pics... my face look so kayu rite since we capture in front of the mirror...

This is the buddha with lots of hands...

This is the Goh Tong Hall... inside jus hav toilet n upstair is the observation hall... emm... dunno what the purpose of this hall oso.... =='

Overall this trip is ok lo... since my fren oso in her sem break... but cannot went into casino o... since my fren is not yet pass her birthday... haiz... if not sure more interesting I guess...

Habit...

Initially I wan to type in chinese words so that can express my feeling more accurate but after that my software like got some problem... cant type in chinese so I forced to type in english lo...

Like what Rainie Yang sing in this song "Xi Guan" I already get to used the life without him... eat alone... go out alone... no more date... try to fulfill up my empty life with others thing... luckily recently I jus met up with some of the secondary classmates... thanks for them accompany me... go yam cha... hang out shopping... without ur guys my life sure very dry... I feel very glad when someone told me that I can always find them if I felt very bored or got problem... thanks... I didnt espect that the day without my bf but till got frens support... when got bf I always tends to forgot the exist of them... now when conflict come... they r the one always support me...

Anything about the relationship... jus let it go as it planned... I wont forced u again... good luck in ur study o...

U forget me...

I could not expect that my bf wil forget me... he email me ask me wait him for webcam... I wait him til midnite although i m tire but i dun dare to sleep... after waiting him for 1hour plus plus i cal him tot him got wat incident happened... den he told me he forgot the time webcam wit me... I cant accept it really... chen I dun trust u anymore b4 that I so trust u n believe our far distance relationship... now u spoil it... n hurt me as well... I dunno y I so stupid keep on believe wrong person... do stupid thing... all tat... conclusion I m IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

New Template...

I been spent hour more to change my blog template to new 1... now is testing c can work o not... in fact, changing template is not as easy as I though since it involved to backup ur old template and old links as well... it was my second time to change my blog template... everytime when I m very unhappy n look for a new life I will change template... emm quite need some editing to make my blog look better...

Losing U....

This week I start to losing u... losing the time sms wit u... losing the time chatting wit u...all the thing which I can did wit u last time... now all gone... gone very fast... I really cant accept my life style like tis now... very weird for me... now almost everyday I was sitting at home do nothing... felt myself very useless... study the diploma dunno when will graduate... no career at all... not eligible to be entrepreneur oso... I so sux... I failed in my life!!!

Love not enough....

Recently I watching the TVB hottest drama - Jia Hou Yuet Yun... this is a end theme song for the drama... actually this song is story about let it go if love not enough... mayb can b til fren... is the sad song...

I b abandon!!!

I b abandon... today is public holiday n yet I sitting at home alone only... no ppl accompany me at all ler... my bro went to vocation edi.. my mum going out since early morning edi... frens go pak tou edi... left me alone n face to the pc... what's going on??? I'm thinking m I b abandon edi??? Y no ppl try to console me o accompany me when I really need them... izit when my bf around I m too "lan C" to them edi??? My attitute wrong??? I cant think anymore edi.. more I think more I hurt...