This is a white bean which I bought in Sunway Pyramid... Rm2 each
After 1 week... some grow quite fast while some til growing...My grandma jus passed away on monday in her house... previously she was sent to Hospital University... but after tat the doctor said if take out the oxygen from my grandma... she mayb wil die.. n yet they asked my grandma permission c whether she wan go back home o stay in hospital... she choose to back home... den they scare my grandma wil go inside ambulance... but luckily she til can tahan until she reach her home...
Tat time... when she reached... only me n my mum n one of my aunt thr onli... n I saw my grandma like very hard to breath... like need use a lot of energy to breath... but den I asked my mum to change the nicer clothes for my grandma... n talk wit her... but she like cannot talk edi... but eyes til can open jus like hang up a bit... after a while... den she close her eyes... n I scare she wil go... den asked my mum n aunt talk wit her again... asked her wake up... but she cannot open her eyes edi... n suddenly I c her like stop breathing edi... den faster asked my mum check her heart beat... sadly to say... her heart had stop edi... tat time I feel damn bad... 1time I saw ppl die in front of me n yet I cant do anything to rescue her... coz tat time I feel shocked... n stop a while dunno wat to do...
Disease really is a most scary thing in the world... the major reason y my grandma wil passed away is her lung, blood, n urine edi infected by disease... she had been suffering around 1 month time... I til remember when Chinese New Year tat time... she holds my hand n ask me something... she always like to hold ppl hand when talking... feel like very warm... n no more edi... I cannot listen her voice n hold by her warm hand edi... I did wrong in last time... coz I nvr appreciated her... when she sick den I start to worry her... I didn't left any regret in my life... I did my best edi... I feel she can feel wat I think in my mind... hope her go peacefully n without nay sickness... grandma... I love u....
Really a long time I didn't out for walk or shopping edi... since my grandma matter consume me lot of time of visit her and also coll assign make me cant breath on some time... so I went to Sunway Pyramid... n try to "cure" my mood... with food all tat lo...
I went to the Asian Revenue... thr hav many shops which make me feel like in Sungai Wang o something lo... got comic shop... gift shop all tat lo... n oso food... mostly is Taiwan n Japan food lo... So I went Gu Lin n order this handmade Mee Suan... taste very good o but small potion only... if really hungry need eat 2bowls lo... n I order red bean soup from the beside shop thr... the red bean is pekat pekat 1... taste really good... but quite expensive lo... cost around RM4 for small bowl o...
The handmade Mee Suan with 2 oysters
The red-bean soup which is one of my favorite on the same time seldom can drink
The cleaning process of pyramid ice skating placePreviously day, my grandma quite sick n sometimes cant even sedar... n cant eat food through her mouth so the doctor said the food will be giving through a pump with link from nose to her stomach...
This is a pic which I taken from Hospital University yesterday when visit my grandma.....
This is a pic whr the pump from nose link to the stomach...Sorry to be said I in the bad mood recently... my mood can bad until I dunno what I was doing... I try to be normal as usual but jus can maintain a while onli... what play around my mind only me know... not 1 wil know... since I really dunno how to express out by words... tat feeling really sux n hate by myself...
I really appreciate what of my relatives and frens hav did to me... they take care of me... b my good listener... but yet cant help me "cure" my bad feeling in my heart... sometimes I may "kill" their kindness or help... but I dun mean to did it actually... haiz... I really feel so down now... I dunno when I can "out" from this bad mood... I really dun wan to be here again...
Injection will carry certain side effect??? I til wondering ler... refer to the previous post I was inject twice on both of my hands ma... n now feel muscles pain around hands thr since 2day I carry something quite heavy... now feel both side of hands like no energy a bit o... haiz... I dun wan my hands get cacat ler...
Follow up my grandma case... 2day she didnt did the operation coz doctor jus found out her white blood cells over red blood cells n no protein inside her body... if continue the operation my grandma mayb in dangerous... she didnt eat or drink for two days edi n yet 2day vomit a lot... including the green liquid all tat... so my uncles they all planned to take her out from hospital n left her at home rest to.... haiz... hard to say her fate... my grandma is very strong edi... she suffer this thing around 3weeks edi... wat we can do... we did edi... haiz...
Wah... I feel my mind like overload edi... dunno is whether 2day I sleep so much o jus now the stupid assign confusing me til headache now... feel like fever come again to me... haiz... although the due date of tis assign is april but I need to do it fast... coz my grandma's condition is til not stable... even become more worse... she need to do the operation 2moro to cut the dead skin near the holes in her body... quite deep actually... n pain... I can c her face is so suffering... feel xin tong about her but nothing can do to make feel better... now we all jus can depend on doctor...
I jus kill the cat accidently... sorry cat... jus now I was driving all the way to my home wit my mum... n passed by 1road which quite dark n less car... den suddenly got 1cat run into the middle of road n bang... I langgar the cat... can hear the bones patah all tat... quite scary... actually I got press break 1... but too late edi... car cannot stop wholly since I drive too fast edi coz feel tire n wan go back home fast... haiz... now I dun dare to check my car whether got blood o not... scare to check... the feeling of killed the cat is like kill ppl... like very hard to make myself forget... n worry the cat spirit wil come find me ler... dunno how now... sorry cat...
This is the song I'd like b4... I think when I was in form 1 0 form 2 lo... very nice o....
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