This is a white bean which I bought in Sunway Pyramid... Rm2 each
After 1 week... some grow quite fast while some til growing...My grandma jus passed away on monday in her house... previously she was sent to Hospital University... but after tat the doctor said if take out the oxygen from my grandma... she mayb wil die.. n yet they asked my grandma permission c whether she wan go back home o stay in hospital... she choose to back home... den they scare my grandma wil go inside ambulance... but luckily she til can tahan until she reach her home...
Tat time... when she reached... only me n my mum n one of my aunt thr onli... n I saw my grandma like very hard to breath... like need use a lot of energy to breath... but den I asked my mum to change the nicer clothes for my grandma... n talk wit her... but she like cannot talk edi... but eyes til can open jus like hang up a bit... after a while... den she close her eyes... n I scare she wil go... den asked my mum n aunt talk wit her again... asked her wake up... but she cannot open her eyes edi... n suddenly I c her like stop breathing edi... den faster asked my mum check her heart beat... sadly to say... her heart had stop edi... tat time I feel damn bad... 1time I saw ppl die in front of me n yet I cant do anything to rescue her... coz tat time I feel shocked... n stop a while dunno wat to do...
Disease really is a most scary thing in the world... the major reason y my grandma wil passed away is her lung, blood, n urine edi infected by disease... she had been suffering around 1 month time... I til remember when Chinese New Year tat time... she holds my hand n ask me something... she always like to hold ppl hand when talking... feel like very warm... n no more edi... I cannot listen her voice n hold by her warm hand edi... I did wrong in last time... coz I nvr appreciated her... when she sick den I start to worry her... I didn't left any regret in my life... I did my best edi... I feel she can feel wat I think in my mind... hope her go peacefully n without nay sickness... grandma... I love u....
Really a long time I didn't out for walk or shopping edi... since my grandma matter consume me lot of time of visit her and also coll assign make me cant breath on some time... so I went to Sunway Pyramid... n try to "cure" my mood... with food all tat lo...
I went to the Asian Revenue... thr hav many shops which make me feel like in Sungai Wang o something lo... got comic shop... gift shop all tat lo... n oso food... mostly is Taiwan n Japan food lo... So I went Gu Lin n order this handmade Mee Suan... taste very good o but small potion only... if really hungry need eat 2bowls lo... n I order red bean soup from the beside shop thr... the red bean is pekat pekat 1... taste really good... but quite expensive lo... cost around RM4 for small bowl o...
The handmade Mee Suan with 2 oysters
The red-bean soup which is one of my favorite on the same time seldom can drink
The cleaning process of pyramid ice skating placePreviously day, my grandma quite sick n sometimes cant even sedar... n cant eat food through her mouth so the doctor said the food will be giving through a pump with link from nose to her stomach...
This is a pic which I taken from Hospital University yesterday when visit my grandma.....
This is a pic whr the pump from nose link to the stomach...Sorry to be said I in the bad mood recently... my mood can bad until I dunno what I was doing... I try to be normal as usual but jus can maintain a while onli... what play around my mind only me know... not 1 wil know... since I really dunno how to express out by words... tat feeling really sux n hate by myself...
I really appreciate what of my relatives and frens hav did to me... they take care of me... b my good listener... but yet cant help me "cure" my bad feeling in my heart... sometimes I may "kill" their kindness or help... but I dun mean to did it actually... haiz... I really feel so down now... I dunno when I can "out" from this bad mood... I really dun wan to be here again...
Injection will carry certain side effect??? I til wondering ler... refer to the previous post I was inject twice on both of my hands ma... n now feel muscles pain around hands thr since 2day I carry something quite heavy... now feel both side of hands like no energy a bit o... haiz... I dun wan my hands get cacat ler...
Follow up my grandma case... 2day she didnt did the operation coz doctor jus found out her white blood cells over red blood cells n no protein inside her body... if continue the operation my grandma mayb in dangerous... she didnt eat or drink for two days edi n yet 2day vomit a lot... including the green liquid all tat... so my uncles they all planned to take her out from hospital n left her at home rest to.... haiz... hard to say her fate... my grandma is very strong edi... she suffer this thing around 3weeks edi... wat we can do... we did edi... haiz...
Wah... I feel my mind like overload edi... dunno is whether 2day I sleep so much o jus now the stupid assign confusing me til headache now... feel like fever come again to me... haiz... although the due date of tis assign is april but I need to do it fast... coz my grandma's condition is til not stable... even become more worse... she need to do the operation 2moro to cut the dead skin near the holes in her body... quite deep actually... n pain... I can c her face is so suffering... feel xin tong about her but nothing can do to make feel better... now we all jus can depend on doctor...
I jus kill the cat accidently... sorry cat... jus now I was driving all the way to my home wit my mum... n passed by 1road which quite dark n less car... den suddenly got 1cat run into the middle of road n bang... I langgar the cat... can hear the bones patah all tat... quite scary... actually I got press break 1... but too late edi... car cannot stop wholly since I drive too fast edi coz feel tire n wan go back home fast... haiz... now I dun dare to check my car whether got blood o not... scare to check... the feeling of killed the cat is like kill ppl... like very hard to make myself forget... n worry the cat spirit wil come find me ler... dunno how now... sorry cat...
This is the song I'd like b4... I think when I was in form 1 0 form 2 lo... very nice o....
As I mentioned in my previous post, I m fever. N yet yesterday nite I vomit a bit mayb dinner time I eat rice n hard to digest by my stomach... til midnight... I fever like shit... wan eat medicine oso a bit hard... coz normally b4 eat medicine mus eat something for stomach 1 to prevent vomit ma... den I wan eat bread wit cheese... but jus eat a bit den feel wan vomit... den waiting my mum to wake up to cook something easy for me to eat... coz tat time feel lazy n tire to move myself...
After my mum wake up, she cook mee hoon sup for me... n I eat my medicine n cover wit blanket coz try to make myself sweat a lot... morning time after sweat is ok... but after 4hours of taking medicine... fever back... n yet I try to eat some porridge b4 taking medicine... I found myself lost interest of eat mayb my sore throat too serious edi... coz keep on flu since yesterday nite...
So I went to c same doctor again... 2day I fever til 101 degree (38.5C )... the doctor said a bit high... n ask me wan injection again o not... I say wan lo since I bored to eat medicine so many times... den he said he wil give me more strong medicine... if 2moro til fever den need blood test lo... mayb is denggi... I dun hope I get denggi ler...
Although I like pink colour but now c the medicine pink colour I feel hate... I feel hate to eat medicine now... but force to...2day I sick ler... fever, cough a bit, sore throat n flu right now... all come sekaligus... feeling wan die edi... jus now went to c doctor n get injection lo... doctor said I too skinny edi... jus now inject on hand ma... he said almost kena my tulang o... haha...
My last time c doctor is sept 06 o... haha... didnt expect that last year i so healthy o... but doctor said my weight til same wit tat year... 42kg... he ask me y... me cannot gain weight... since edi one n more year edi... he ask me 1day need take 5meals la... cannot skip breakfast... but I always skip o... coz dun hav mood eat on morning ma...
The medicine... not so bitter lo... since I make them into powder 1 den eat ma... coz cannot swallow in pill form ma...
Haha... this is the thing I like to used when I m fever lo... cool fever... really nice o... make head cold cold n easily sleep lo...
Yesterday I jus bought tis clips more chocolate's biscuit eat coz looked like tasty n new ma... n 2day sore throat edi... haiz... now hav to eat medicine... I hate chocolate!!!!
2day is my 21st birthday... before that I tot can celebrate but now I cannot celebrate tis day... since my grandma til very weak n sick... 2day morning, she nearly "go" coz suddenly coma n breath very very weak... den we rush to thr... but my other relatives edi called ambulance send her to hospital again... Again is the named Puravi private hospital... tat sux hospital... I hate them so much !!!! the doctor said my grandma sugar level very low... only 1.1 normal old ppl is around 4.0 like tat...
So right now my birthday is not important anymore... jus wish my grandma can really recover...
Last week, I went to The Curve and Ikano wit meh meh n my family... we went to the pet shop in Ikano... everytime went thr can c many cute cute dog... once c them sure hav the feeling wan take them home lo... but they quite expensive oso o need up to thousands... some more need many times to care them n space for them...
Meh meh go into the dog house (big size)
This is the dog house ( small size )
Me n Meh Meh at the interbridge which linked btw Ikana and The Curve...
This is a doll which I like to collect oso... but not for sale o... guess should be limited edition 1....2day I went to the presentation which lecture by vice chancellor of Binary University College ... he is the big lier said got new campus but now said cancel edi so I jus study in the small campus in Puchong... n the way he lecture like shit I hate him coz 2day presentation... suppose is my other team member will present all the thing but at last minute she quit ask me present my part... den I said I cannot since I nvr prepare anything n I not good presenter oso ma... den my other team member help me to present my part... n I jus do the introduction to my team members n after the presentation... the vice chancellor said I wil get 0 mark... wtf... I did my power point slide n some of the essay thing n yet I get 0mark... tat time I really feel wan to cry but I jus control myself... n one of my team member did help me to explain to the chancellor but he jus ignore me totally... wtf...
Who can I blame??? Blame myself not brave enough to going present on last minutes??? o the team member who quit at last minute??? When I think back of tis event again I feel myself very stupid...
This is a video I taken so that I can show to my grandmother in ICU... coz children r not allow to enter ma... but the nurse said cannot due to there are many machines thr... but 2day morning I went hospital c my grandmother... she did improve a lot... she can talk like normal, eat and drink all no problem o... hope this is a miracle happened on her...
Health n Wealth which one u wil pick? Last time, I wil pick wealth coz I thought wealth can make me have the power to own everything I liked. But now I feel I was so naive... refer back to my grandmother's case... now my relatives they all wiling to pay whatever they have just hope to cure my grandmother but wealth cannot exchanges health. In other words, health is priceless...
Health is the most important asset for us but obviously we did ignore our health...
Dunno what to do... my grandmother has been suffered for 1week... now her condition is quite terrible n yet til in ICU... yesterday she talking to no one n laughing... the nurse go n asked her talk wit who... she said "cucu la.." besides that, her swallow hands (mainly is water cause) yesterday the water suddenly split out... haiz... now she can recognize all of us jus she wil talk nonsense which doesn't make sense... n yet the doctor said after 2days can take her out...
2day I went to coll n feel no mood to study... although I try to concentrate but cant... til have 6weeks classes... hope can faster finish it... 2moro I plan to help my grandmother ask "god"... c weather she til got chance to recover o not... hope she wil recover soon...
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