I b abandon!!!

I b abandon... today is public holiday n yet I sitting at home alone only... no ppl accompany me at all ler... my bro went to vocation edi.. my mum going out since early morning edi... frens go pak tou edi... left me alone n face to the pc... what's going on??? I'm thinking m I b abandon edi??? Y no ppl try to console me o accompany me when I really need them... izit when my bf around I m too "lan C" to them edi??? My attitute wrong??? I cant think anymore edi.. more I think more I hurt...