Wat can I do....

Today is the worst day in my life... I'm quite shock when log in to my facebook n saw those pics... my bf wit other gals pics when go clubbing in uk... I really really cannot accept those pics... I did trust him before he went to uk... but now every week I oso got suprise wit those pics... every week u know... everytime I told myself to b trust him... but when saw those pics... I really felt my heart broken... I need to trust him with those pics??? I think I cannot do tis at tis moment...

I really felt hopeless... M I too naive for tis relationship or I really is a idiot... I really try my hard to b trust u... but when saw those pics I really cannot b trust u anymore... I not able to force myself to trust u again... I really regret to let u go uk study... right now regret oso useless... since u been thr edi n wont back again... It is nearly to the end our 4years plus relationship... I really felt "bu she de"... but wat can I do anymore... I guess no anymore...

Pimple far far away from me....

Today coz too bored at home den looked back my pics in the past... n realize that my pimple gone long long time ago after get the consultation from the skin care doctor... emmm... it takes around 6months to heal my pimple n scar all tat... I felt satisfied wit the result now... since each month jus need to spend around Rm200 den can prevent pimple growing in my face... :)

This is the pic before get treatment... c so terrible rite....

This is now... :) c clearly hav lot of improvement rite...

So ppl who hav pimple skin dun give up... u stil hav chance to take ur pimple away as long as u dun give up... recap back last time I did used lots of method to remove d pimple from my face but it's stil failed... although lots of money had been spent but no result coming out... I think get the skin care doctor for consultation better much that we try n error on new product and so on...

It is btw trust or betray...

In between trust or betray tis two words which u wil choose at first??? For common situation, most of the ppl wil choose trust... but how long wil the trust lasting??? Wil it last forever if ignorance is taking place together??? Nobody wil know perhaps...

Now my situation is I moving opposite the flow of the river... which needs to spend more enegry that usual n time as well... I dunno it wil works at the last or not... although most of the ppl told me that it is impossible but I til insist wat I'm doing now... bcoz I m trusting him....

Think future... if trust doesnt exist anymore den betray wil b taking place... the opposite of trust is betray... of coz I dun hope betray tis thing wil happen in my life... I hate being betray by others... so that I dislike as betrayer... betray didnt bring any benefit whereas it brings harmful onli... once u become betrayer... ur image wil gone...

Really hope myself r in the right road... time cannot return back so that ppl cannot return to the past... once u missed out the opportunity den no chance anymore... soli guys, tis post was quite blur actually... I oso dunno wat I'm trying to write... I jus try to express out my feeling in indirect way...

P1 Wimax roadshow...

Now dun need pay any upfront n can take the modem home n go online wit wimax...

This few days I was working under reseller for P1 wimax roadshow in Klang... before that I tot the job jus around few promoters oso... who knows there are 16 promoters including 2reseller inside... Unexpected I was the ppl who got power to guard n lead the team... this was actually putting the test for my leadership skills.... it is very hard if dealing wit the troublesome team members... they r very agressive n each others was fight for their commission... n I m the person who wil arrange for the on-site demo for them... since some of the areas in Klang may not in coverage... so it is better to do the on-site demo b4 asking the customers to sign up...

This roadshow is smthg like pc fair... very busy until sometime whole day jus eat 1meal onli... but beside work I oso having fun wit gang of new frens... but majority of them r from kl... so after tis roadshow mayb we wont c each others again...

First day in the roadshow....

Yy n me...

Wat tis guy try to do??? He actually try to pose to steal the flyers.... he dare to do tis since tat time all shop r close edi...

Left few of us onli since other team members were going for on-site demo n we r waiting for they back in the very silent mall... since is late nite edi... all shops r close...

Boring day...

Today I felt so relief since exam finish edi n easy to do as well so dun need worry wil failed again lo... before tis I'm so no mood to do revision... revision a while den rest again read magazine or newspapers... besides that, I oso watch cartoon wit Meh Meh in tv9 1 - 4.30pm got 1 cartoon very funny 1 the title of the cartoon is catdog... they r stick together most of the time n do the funny stupid thing... so quite nice to watch... although is in malay language...

C I've did to Meh Meh's hand... coz I too bored edi den stretch on her hand...

Left 1 is my bf... central 1 is Meh Meh... right 1 is me lo... cute ler...

Ask her to pose so that I can take pic but now c back tis pic her mouth like weird weird a bit o...

Tis pic I was asked her try to pose wit her big alluring eyes... :P

C how big Meh Meh eyes can b go... very very big rite... haha...

New look of PSP....

Before I own PSP I m so wanted to get it... but after I got it I feel like sien sien a bit lo... less play d games oso since I nvr buy the cd for install d games since most of the time my bf wil download new games for me... but now he not here den I ma no games to play lo... now after one n half year... d charger spoil edi ler... so force to buy new charger ap 1 lo since ori 1 quite expensive ma...

Change new pouch as well... c the different the top 1 n bottom 1.... obviously top 1 very dirty :P since I nvr wash...

New strip oso... since they in 1set come wit pouch...

C all brand new pouch n my PSP is charging... =) since few days no battery cannot play music when I'm driving coz my car radio spoil edi but lazy go n repair...

My car went to "hospital"....

Yesterday I jus sent my car for repair... the foreman looked like very busy n unprofessional at all... but I forced to send my car to thr n repair since the foreman is my uncle's fren so the charge wil b lower at the market price...

Actually I oso dunno wat happen to my car... coz the timing wil goes very low if I put the gear at D but when I put the gear at N normal back... den the foreman oso dunno wat happen to my car n said need my car need to "stay" thr for few days coz need to wait when he free onli checked for me... now I mis my car ler... n worry my spongebob n patrick wil b missing... hmm... I shud take them home together wit me yesterday now so regret edi...

C except my car stil hav other cars r waiting thr... n other car owner - uncle oso waiting thr oso...

Me n Meh Meh again.... coz too bored waiting thr so we jus play wit camera... :P

Tis pic is Meh Meh using my hp capture 1... she is smart??? Haha...

Emo Emo Emo...

I emo again during my work yesterday... again I fight wit the ppl in the workplace... tis time the ppl I fight wit is the security... wtf rite... they r too racist edi... they asked me to cut my lovely finger nails which I have been keep for 2months n just do my manicure recently... of coz I dun wan la... coz I didnt do any sampling in the place... I jus stand thr onli ma... but they insist wan me to cut of if not they wont let me in... At the end, I'm lose... I force to force myself to cut the finger nails unwillingly... n I too emo edi n cry a bit... den the another security guard try to console n argue wit his collegue at well... he using too long time to fight for my right... it's too late edi when other guards said can let me in wit my long finger nails... sighh... I so so so "bu she de" my finger nails... ppl who know me sure know I like my nails very much... I have to cut my nails wit the scissor doesnt make sense rite...

After that, I go into the outlet n starting emo... my collegues were so shocked n try to asked me what happened... but I too emo edi n cant tell them wat happened... den my team leader said ask me go inside n have a short break if necessary... so I went inside n break a while... after that I managed to calm down myself den I onli went out n continue my work... during lunch time I told my collagues what's had been happened n they said security is memang racist... to avoid boycott by the outlet... I have to obey to them... haiz... although I really dun feel like it but force to accept it...

Today I think back the yesterday event felt that sometime I really very emo until almost spoil my career... but luckily tis time my team leader was so good give me time to claim down myself and make sure I'm ok before he goes... haha... thanks Kim... u r such a nice team leader... :) next time I wil try to control my emo... cannot emo again la... if not sure ppl around me wil feel me so "scary"...

Blankness....

I was mentally blankness right now when take out all the notes and prepare to do my second time revision for business math which I was failed in my last sem... If the lecturer is normal den I wont failed and need to force myself to do the second time revision on the same thing... since I forgot all the thing after exam edi... ==' luckily my spm foundation is quite ok so did help me right now... actually I really dun plan to do the revision since my mood is not thr oso... emmm another 11days den the exam wil be take place... nope should deducte out weekends... is around 7days exam wil be come... sighh... hope I wil pass for the exam... since I confirm I cant score A anymore...

I listed out the chapters which I need to go through in order to cover all the exam areas....

C my form 5 add math book and my coll study manual... 2 in 1... since the coll study manual no in detail enough...

Cute side of animals.....

Today I surf through net n saw those cute pics from Yahoo!.... actually long time I didnt went to petting zoo or zoo negara to c those animals... sometimes animals can b very cute... especially when they r in infant stage...

The baby panda ( new born for few weeks )....

After a month... grow bigger a bit liao...

When panda sleeping... so cute...

This frog was so cute and make me think about u.... chen... coz ur face expression quite same wit this frog :P...

Orangutan wearing slipper and underwear... the way it walks same like human...

Tired of friendship

Suddenly I felt very tire of making frens den ciao after finished the part time work... nor matter how nice or how good they r... they jus temporary frens... although we exchange the phone number but I sure we wont call or sms again... jus the emergency case like about salary or others den we wil contact if not... very hard to go out gather liao...

In this few months, I have met lots of frens during part time work... some really very nice person... while some is utilize ppl type... but during working in a big group is really fun... play play n chit chat... but after change to new location... den get to know new frens again... I m so tiring of tis friendship cycle... no meaning at all... jus play play n having temporary fun...

At the last onli alone... I dun trust frens wil accompany u forever.. no such thing in the world... or I should said it is very rare or limited...

Anti "K" mission.......

As I mentioned in my previous post... my supervisor - "K" was sucker... he limited the team leader to given out project for me... if u r work under certain recruitment agency in klg u sure know who is "K"... luckily today other area team leader called me n asked me work but at last minutes... after that when I on the half way going to my working place den klg team leader calling me... he asking me for replacement... but I on the half way edi so reject liao... I hope "K" will not able find other replacement...

Now I gather other promoters as well to anti "K"... now two of the promoters join my team edi... haha... although sounds a little childish but this is the onli way I can get back wat I wanted without blocking by anyone... anyone who try to block me wil "kill" by me...

The main reason I so hate "K" coz he tolds other ppl as well to boycott me... dun give me any project... wtf... so kecil hati 1.... if he being dump by his gf in future time... he sure wil go suicide... cant think in open-minded way...