Bad Luck

2day i feel a bit bad luck of me coz early morning when i on the way go to coll, i tahan by police but i didnt against any law.... So innocent ler.... When the traffic light turned to yellow i oso dun dare to go n patiently wait for green light den go ler.... Suddenly one of the police standing in the middle of the road tahan the car in front me n me oso ler.... So weird ler..... I tot i force to stop to the aside but when i plan to stop aside unwillingly.... I found thr no hav space somemore....N i looking to another police, he is busying discussing wit one lorry driver so i jus escape from them. Tat time i really feel scare, if the police caush me ler.... But luckily there are onli 2 police n both r them quite busy on tat time. Coz i dun wan to give them under table money ler i didnt did any wrong oso.... Y i mus stop aside waste my time n mayb need pay them money to escape myself from summon....

After that, i went to coll car park management settle my parking payment in the break time..... N i went into the toilet in tat building..... When i go inside the toilet, i sure i m alone inside onli. But when i wash my hand in front of mirror..... I heard one girl called "Shelly".... I feel so creepy on tat time since i onli the one inside the toilet...... I try to calm down n think maby is the person outside n shout on her fren o wat.... So i walk fast to leave the toilet n look around the building thr...... no even 1girl was around thr jus one guy jus passing beside me...... Haha... i feel something wrong of that toilet edi n walk quite fast to leave tat building as fast as possible...... That toilet definetely got something "dirty" inside.... so scary ler....

Boring Nite

Dunno wat to do wit tis long nite. But feel happy coz jus chat wit my bf. He online in Indonesia but cost 1hour RM15 ler damn expensive. He wil back on 2moro nite. 2day is me n him 3years 4months.... but he not here celebrate wit me.... :(

Lousy Lantern Festival

Tis is a pic i took at klang parade which they decorate to celebrate the lantern festival..... So nice


Tis nite i went to the lantern festival which organized by my coll but very lousy ler. Onli few ppl go thr n the activities oso damn outdated edi wat music chairs la. Pls la we edi coll level edi, do u expect we to play tis 1? Some more need to pay rm5 per person. When i wan to buy the ticket jus now, one of the organizer said full edi la wat la not enough food la. After that, like need begging them to buy ler. So shit n sux la.

Next time if tat novanne organized any functions again i definitely wil not go again..... I swear.....

Virus of Problems Growing...

2day i feel so bad about three things.....

1) I so hate about the bitch who i had mentioned b4. 2day, early morning my fren sms me said tat bitch suddenly go sit beside him. Again tat bitch dun reserve place for me again. I feel so tension go coll especially on wed coz noon tat bitch wil pretend close wit me ask me go for lunch again.... 2day, i success to escape lunch wit her. But i had skipped class go ioi n watch movie wit frens.....

2) I feel so sorry to one of my best fren, coz 2day i shouted at him without reason. It is because, i so angry about tat bitch n he talk wit me. Although i said sorry to tat fren, but he seem til angry me. I really dun hav idea wat to do. I know is my fault mayb he wil not forgive me again. I lost a fren cause my mistakes. I so useless til can make someone close wit me angry me n dun wan fren wit me somemore.

3) My cousin called to my mum tis morning n talk something bad about me. Remember last blog i mentioned tat my cousin is my boss wife o not..... She talked i demand claim petrol n i dun going to implement the job which she asked me to do.... In fact, the truth is not like wat her talking about. Coz she dunno so detail about my job since i under her husband not her. I feel so shocked when my mum told me tis thing. The feeling jus like u nvr steal money but ppl said u stolen it. N i cry in front of my mum...... Coz so many bad thing happened 2day n i really cant afford to face it..... i feel really depress now..... mayb i need to c doctor soon.....
My boss called me once i arrived home after class, he sounds like dunno wat thing my cousin talk to my mum n feel so shock when he discuss wit me, i cry again.... he like try to comfort me..... but i really feel my cousin make a small issue become big issue......

I totally disappointed to my life, to wat i living now, to wat position am i right now......
I lost a best fren n my cousin relationship become worse by now.....
Many thing really cant b go back again.....
Nor matter how u try, how u explain oso useless.....
I really lost the direction in my life but dun one wil share my feeling right now......

Bye Bye

Tis is the second time, me n my bf wil going not contact for more than 1day...... The first time is when i went to national service last time. Tis time is the second time coz my bf need to go to Indonesia work for 3days....

I dunno how 2 survive tis few days..... coz everyday i need share my problem wit him n ask him give me opinion coz me quite stupid dunno how to make decision most of the time. Now he wil leave me 3days, mean wat thing gonna to happen tis 3days sure wil blank to me..... no ppl sharing....no opinion..... haiz....

Mayb is the time for me to learn how to act independent. But guys like gals being depend on them sometimes....

Resign

Remember i mentioned the first day job of me yesterday. 2day i didnt go any outlets although i dun hav class. Coz boss dun provide any petrol claim. They jus ask me go after my class to save petrol. 1place rm20 edi so little somemore 2day they told me i dun need go kl area edi. Other outlets oso dun need. If i act fact, i can go klg 2outlets. If i slow then they wil cover up. Wtf!

I jus e-mail report to boss n ask them whether til need my serivces o not since all the outlets u all can go. Den let ur all go n "enjoy" la. I wan quit edi. Actually, my boss is my cousin husband. So i feel embrace when need said the truth. Dunno 2moro they wil cal me o not? If nvr cal me, mayb i wil ignore them coz feel disappointed edi. Wat they promise b4 totally different now.

Such an abusing ppl job they find other ppl better la. So next time i wil not work under them again.

Pictures....

Tis is my pc which i jus bought last year wit sonic gear n LCD screen......

My D.I.Y Collection

"The Princess n Frog" i like tis story...... Coz they live happy forever.....

Tis is a using the transnational way to sew tis pictures take about 1month time to complete.....

Tis is using a cross-stitch way to stitch it, i spend 2months to completed .....

If u zoom n c, can c Athena is falling down rite.... haha :0

Beautiful sky.... Seem like peace.... Tis is an evening time i took tis pic...

Traffic Jam..... I hated the most....

Ok la, tis is a small collection of my pics....
Many pics wil coming soon o......

First Day Work

2day is my first day work. Mr. Han who is my boss wit me go kl - plaza low yat, sg. wang and pavilion to check some stock. Job quite easy some more can shopping while working. Quite nice but tired ler walk walk walk..... Actually my salary is rm20 per place. 2day i went 4places but my cousin onli give me rm40 coz she said her husband, mr. han was go wit me 2day so i onli get half of my salary so unfair ler.... i feel unhappy a bit.....

Tis is a pic which i took at low yat while waiting mr. han chatting wit client.....

All the bad things finally passed gua.....

Last week really is not mine week. All the thing can b go to the wrong side. Me n my bf hav argue on yesterday. The argument almost ended up our relationship. Mayb i too angry o childish of tis argument. I jus wan to delete those kind of unhappy thing.

After one more hour, is a new week for me to start my new life over. :) In between, soli to those frens who worried me..... thanks all of urs. 2moro, i wil start a new job - part time merchandiser which i mentioned b4. Feel a bit nervous of tis new job.

3 more days, my bf wil go outstation. He wil go to Indonesia for 3days 2nites. I think i gonna to mis him crazy those few days coz mayb we cant contact for those days... We mus b contact everyday except for tat time when i went to ns den we onli contact one week once. But he seems very excited to go here n gain the new experiences.... :p

Stupid Waiting Coz i Believe

I really out of my mood now. Tis is going is the first time i going to write about my bf in my blog. I really feel myself very stupid waiting he phone cal coz he promise to call me after the project runway tv show. But after the tv show, i waiting n keep waiting, he til dun calling me. So i be the mover, i cal him for several times. He didnt pick up my phone. After a while, i til keep calling n calling til he pick up my phone, he was blur blur coz he nap in sofa. N i was asking him, whether wat to talk o not. He said yes n said wil cal me.

Ok, tis time i waiting again. He til dun cal me. I feel frustrated edi, i cal him again. Again, the answer is til the same, he was sleeping in his bed right now. I understand he was so tire coz working for whole day. But pls dun play my feeling ok.

If he really cant chat wit me, jus said it honestly. Dun let me keep waiting n waiting. U know i hate waiting rite. 2moro is not going a date day for me n him....

Social Barriers

I really out of mood 2day coz some social barriers exist in my coll. Unhappy coll's life begin is hunted me. It not my dreamed coll's life anymore. I dunno use wat words to describe all tis thing since i had been reveal my blog address to someone i should not gave tat make me regret yesterday n make me cant sleep whole the night.

My blog should be the space for me to speak freely. But now, tis blog like limited me to speak out something. So i jus can speak out in indirectly way (safe way).

Recently, i feel unhappy wit my coll's life. Wat can i do? I asked some of my frens, they jus advised me ignore all those unhappy thing. It is because more i care about it, the more i wil suffer. N they called tis is a stupid behavior. But i til cant controlled myself to think about it.

Life should be simple n enjoyable, but it happens to me in opposite way. I really need frens who can be trusted to support me to go through all tis barriers.....

Utilize by Bitch

Which bitch i talking about? I sure she dunno she being named Bitch by me. She such an adorable when i knew her last time. But suddenly tis year, she change majority of her attitudes. She is a bitch. Initially, i dun wan post something related to her inside my blog coz dun wan let her exist in my blog. But 2day, she try to start the fire wit me. She did the thing which make me annoyed twice in tis day.

When she need to utilize me, she wil come close wit me n talk shit. When she dun need utilize me, she wil treated me as transparent. I jus realize 2day which she try utilize me. Although, i n she from best fren downgrade to normal fren. But i til treat her as normal fren. I nvr think something in negative thing such as utilize her o get any benefits from her.

She totally disappointed me n make me more hate her right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Old Fren Calling...

tis morning when i was sleeping...., my hp vibrant non-stop, i open half of my eyes n c the screen.... is my old fren calling me... i feel so shock n blur... it is because quite some times we didnt chit chat in phone edi i think almost 2years. we jus keep in touch wit sms. He cal me n said he having the exam rite now n said something about his current life... such a surprise for me 2day...

My pic

Tis is my pic without make-up o so u all can c lots of pimples o..... :0
Silly fish face which i prefer coz can make my eyes looks bigger a bit n fat fat face......Tis is a serious face .... :-/

Meh meh

Haha, tis is a pic me n meh meh. She is 4years old n got big eyes.... cute n pretty baby o.....

Busy all den week

Sorry, i didn't write my blog almost 1week. Actually, i wan to write blog but very busy doing assign. 2day feel better a bit coz i jus passed up 1assign which is e-commerce assign i mentioned b4. Yesterday i asked one of my fren to upload for me n successful. But yesterday i quite unlucky coz when i wan print out my assign for e-commerce, my printer run out of color ink. So, yesterday nite i hav 2 rush to my bf house n print. After that, i went back to my house n plan to burn out the assign but my pc burner is dvd burner not a cd-r burner. Haiz...., so i use my bf laptop to burn but cant burn coz i stupid i set the wrong drive to burn. Ai...., so i hav been busy all the nite jus for 1assign. 2day i finally hand in to coll n feel relief a bit ler. Now i dun so stress edi.

Some more, 2day i lunch wit 2of my course mates n they make funny jokes n talk nonsense coz wan disturb other guy who dated wit a pretty girl..... Is a happy lunch in McDonald... ;)

Next week, i hav to go work as part time merchandiser. Feel nervous n happy. Hope i can handle tis job good while handle my coll assign.

Stress coming...

Stress coming when one lump sum of assign coming week by week......

Dreamweaver is a software used to create the web pages n then post to the internet. But i m the idiot in using tis kind of software. I hate dreamweaver very much. Coz my lecturer asked me to do the commercial web page n upload to the net. But he nvr teach me how to upload and ask me try myself. I jus completed my web page now the problem arise. I cant view my pictures after i upload all the thing. Wat i can i do. One of my classmate done the web page edi but since like dun wan teach me. Y so selfish o. Now i keep on trying on uploading my web page wit photos. Hope can upload successfully den i can go sleep early. Coz i now edi tire edi but need force myself of doing tis stupid thing try an error.

Somemore, 2day my international marketing assign reject by my lecturer. He so cruel rejected all the assign. Wat is wrong wit him. Something wrong wit his manner. I so angry coz need to redo again. Since i hav put some efford in the previous assign ma. Haiz, 10marks assign dun need give some many trouble to me gua. Feel like wan to give up of tis stupid 10marks....

Identity Reveal

I jus watch the movie called "Perfect Stranger" which not a very nice movie but remind me the important of identity. Now, i realize that i reveal some information which is quite private to my frenz is a dangerous behavior. I feel regret n foolish of me. Y i reveal something which lead me to the trouble n bring a lot of problem to me. I really hope i can hav a new identity n go to the new place which dun ppl wil know me.

2day is not my day serious. Y many surprise things come across me which lead me to the bad consequences. I tot i m lucky 2day but actually is opposite. Coz i eat KFC as dinner, i order the colonial burger set but the cashier gave me zinger burger. I didnt notice she gave me wrong burger coz i really depress on tat time. Until i open tat burger n eat den feel so spicy den realize she gave the wrong burger 2me. But tis is not something lucky as u think. Coz the zinger burger very very spicy ler. As a result, i cant finish tat "lucky" burger oso.... Wat happen 2me 2day????!!!

Secret

Ah Joo is my fren who knew about one month like tat is study in binary but different course wit me. She is very frenly since we stay in klg. 2day, she feel so down coz she faced some problem n she share wit me. She asked me keep secret for her. Of coz, i wil keep secret for her onli. Ah Joo, wat ever u do i wil support u.

Soul + Body = Completely Out

Nightmare is so terrible for me like dream about ghost causing me, argue wit bf and more. 2day, i hav very scary nightmare, i dream about i argue wit my bf terrible, feel like so real ler until i wake up til hav tat type of feeling make me soul out of my body. So i jus bring my body go coll 2day.

So upset ler. I hate nightmare la. Make my life messy.....

Tis is a webpage who give comment on nightmare. Pls go n hav a look of it.
http://health.yahoo.com/experts/deepak/1643/where-do-nightmares-come-from